Day 7: half an apple in 6 days and two small bottles of water. Bad dreams and night shivers are my buddies lately. Dogs howling today like wolves, probably protesting about me not being around them. Bloody headache that wont go away and last but not least the awful reality of not being yours anymore. Oh what a beautiful life i have!
It feels like I’m falling into a bottomless pit and hitting everything on the way down. That’s how empty i feel, that’s how much pain i go through.
Dear god, i have prayed for nights so please answer my prayer. Please god, when i close my eyes to sleep, i pray i never open them again as i don’t want to wake up to nothing but pain and loneliness. Dear god, if you wont do it i pray you give me the strength to do so myself and not fail this time.
I’ll keep praying till my prayer is answered. I am loosing the will to do anything and especially to live.
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